What should I say.. Okay, I love Harvey Norman but hate Gateway TO THE MAXIMUM. So it wasn't that bad because my bosses were really nice to me, us -- all of us :) Jinghui and I stuck together like sticky glue, Jay and Kah Chun were really nice people, always looking out for us. Old kor kors. HAHA. It's all for the experience, I must say. In four days, the maximum somebody sold is nine items. Whoa much. Oh, and Jinghui's post about me on her Livejournal is named after some guy. Naise. (Y) hehehehehe :)

Josh walked me home, after spending the first half an hour of Jinghui's birthday with her :) then I met two of his friends. I have to admit, I'm really bad at meeting new people, especially face to face. So I said hi, and looked away. Haha! Sorry :x then I talked to (more like reply) ZH on FB. I feel bad for keeping ZH up until now. He's like really tired but he still accompanied me. Okay, now I feel really tired too. Shiiiiiiit, not good. I hope I can persevere until my class ends today. Hope only ah.

Not thinking properly nao.
Sweetest dreams, xxx.

I really had the intention to blog. But i got so distracted.. I'm sorry Livejournal, for leaving you empty for so long :( I will blog tomorrow, in class! I think. I have so much to update. I really hope I don't miss out anything because life has been great! :) love y'all. So much! Today was great. Okay, check back tomorrow! :)

xxx.

Look no where, feel no hurt for what you don't know can't hurt you. If you don't know he existed, he can't hurt you. Intentionally, or unintentionally. Who the fuck still believes in guys hurting you unintentionally? I am really sick of meeting all the jerks, all the time. Fuck off already, just fuck off. You are getting on my nerves. The more guys I meet, the worst they get. I'm totally not diggin' it. The last thing I need is more people annoying me.

Really.

That aside! I'm talking to Tong An Ting now. He is still as cute as ever <: as usual, we are talking about guys. And Mr Tong An Ting has yet to get me my Alex :( I feel like a kid when he said, "Hahaha, Cheryl! You will meet your prince charming soon. :)" Maybe because people don't usually call me by my name on MSN. (Except Jinghui. Lol.) And I don't think I'm ready to meet my 'prince charming' anyway. I don't want the image of the perfect boyfriend to be ruined by some asshole that I might think that is the perfect one :) hahaha. I don't know what am I saying anymore.

Oh yes, and I love Lim Zheng Ping because he carried my laptop all the way from School to Simei. ♥♥♥♥ If I were to ask Lee Yue Cheng to help me carry, he'll throw my laptop back to me when we reach Woodlands MRT station -.- haha! Don't worry, I love you still. :) and the two of them were guessing what something means. Mr Lim Zheng Ping kept bugging me to tell him until the point whereby Yue Cheng also wanted to know. Then Yue Cheng got what that something means first, and he keep laughing in an evil way because Cody was still completely puzzled. And Cody also didn't know what 520 means anyway. Hahahaha! :) :)

You can say I have the best guy friends. You can also say that the rest of the guys that I meet, whom I do not consider as friends, are completely fucked up :) Just sayin'.

It's five sixteen in the morning. Time to sleeeeeep!
How am I going to wake up in time to meet Jinghui and Kairui...
I REALLY DON'T KNOW MAN. LOL.
:)

xxx.

Thanks Jinghui for running around with me today!
Thanks Kairui and Leongbing for your patience!
Ultimately, thanks Cody Lim Zheng Ping for the birthday gift!

♥♥♥♥

I'm really really happy!
You can say that I'm easily satisfied..
But I don't care. Hehehe.

xxx.

Hmmm. There are so many things to blog about today. Let's start with the idea of selling my phone. Obviously, it's not my idea.. But you know what I mean. I've used my iPhone 3G for say... Nine months already. I don't want to part with it because it's the best phone everrrrr. (If you don't include iPhone 3Gs.) So the deal is, sell my phone now, bear with a temporary phone for probably a month, or until I have enough money to buy another iPhone (hopefully 3Gs, or later). Sounds good to me..?

Next, I met Jinghui this afternoon evening! :) Went to Topshop and Dorothy Perkins. I saw three tops that I want, but I can't get. Not now. But next week, I can! :x so yes, waiting for my frikkin' pay, tyvm. I intend to keep part of my pay for my favourite boys :) They are the reason why I can shop tomorrow. Since they love me so, I shall love 'em too! Actually, I have more nice guys around me than I think I used to have. Which is great, most of them are great because they do actually care about me, about my safety :) And probably half of them don't know that they mean a lot to me because they don't know me much but care for me anyway. I bet they also not know how thankful I am that I have them around me. After looking around, feeling a little disappointed because I didn't manage to get anything today, Jinghui and I went to get Popeyes :) then while we were walking sometime today, I remember her talking about something then totally changed her topic when she saw a cute guy. It went like, "Blah, blah, blah... Oh and that guy is cute!" I almost rofl-ed. It was really funny because I thought I thought aloud because I thought that that guy was cute too :p hilarious.

Then we headed to Bedok to meet Linda, Junsi, Wendy, Yankai, Kairui and Yongding. We hailed a cab and went to meet Irwin at Starbucks. :) we talked, laughed, took photos. Fun times don't really last that long, y'see. Hahaha. We also went to Old HK cafe. Then back home by bus. I was afraid to walk home alone from the bus stop because although it is near my block, but it is still really quiet and creepy. I called Jay. (The guy I knew at Comex who looks like Jay Chou.) Well, 'cause he can drive! But he didn't have a car tonight. What luck! :/ then I texted another friend of mine, whom I shall not name, and he called me. He can't drive but offered to talk to me on the phone while I walk back :) Jinghui and Irwin took 14 with me to Tanah Merah and waited for my 38 before they walked back home. Thanks y'all, hehe :)

Then when I got back home and after I showered, I talked to Benj on MSN. He didn't believe that I'm staying at Simei now! He still made me show him what's outside my window through webcam. (Hahahaha, wait 'til he sees this!) anyway, he stays at Simei, and he thinks that Simei is darn small and it is very safe. So I think that he can walk me home next time! :) :) :) I will love this loser more if he will walk me home when I can't find someone to send me home :p oh, and if only he is willing to lend me his jacket and say hi when he sees me! WORLD'S BIGGEST LOSER. But still pretty much love him for the birthday wish. (PS: He thought that since I still remember that he wished me really early many years ago, he wanted to be the last to wish me on my birthday this year but he got stuck in the toilet! HAHA. So he was late by a little.) Just thought that I should let y'all know how cute he is :) hehe. (He might kill me because of this.) And I seriously don't know why Benj 'screams' at me on MSN so much that I have to 'scream' right back at him. Bickering with him is funnnn.

It's getting quite late, and I'm still awake. I am meeting Jinghui at 11 tomorrow, and we're heading to town. We'll walk around and she'll meet Kairui for dance, while I meet Ashley, Erica and Rina to study. We plan to study for C111 and A114. I think I need to start to speak up during C111 because he just gave me a big fat 'C' for being really quiet in class. (Sigh) Another 'C'. I wonder how my grades will be like for A114 and B216 for week five. I'm praying really hard for 'A's but I'm feeling the 'B's. The week I get 5 'A's is the week that I have finally walked out of my holiday mood and start working hard for my second semester. But I refuse, for God-knows-what reason. I really don't know why I am I not putting in effort for G103 and C111. Maybe if I do well for my first UT, I might just start to write good RJs for G103 and speaking up in class for C111. I don't know what is wrong with me. Only about ten more weeks until the end of my second semester.. Time really flies this time. Time to buck up.

Oh my God.
G'morning everyone, it's 4.47 AM.
xxx.

This is for all you people who've played a part, any part :)

28th Oct - Samuel (He wished me this early because he was afraid that he'll forget to wish me on the actual day.) 31st - Yingjie, Maisul, Ivan Toh. 1st - Jinghui (Babe, babe, thanks for your efforts the year before and this. Even though we didn't meet up this year for whatever reasons, you never fail to make others feel special. I love you! :D ♥♥♥), Zhebin (Besty, don't worry, you're still the first person... To SMS me :P I miss you a lot! ♥♥), Haslin, Yuecheng (♥♥♥), Linda (Thanks babe, you have no idea how happy I was to see you again :D ♥♥♥ I know what went on behind the scenes and sorry for the trouble my birthday has caused!), Tianloke, Guozhu, Lester (Thanks for being there. :D ♥), Qinghui (♥♥), Cherie, Shermin, Zhi Hwa (Thanks for the thought! :D ♥), Jason Tan, Valentia, Melvin Wong, Cody (♥♥♥), Johnathan Wong, Joyce, Dominque, Hao, Euray, Huixian, Derek Wee, Zihong (Sushi soon okay! :D hehehe ♥), Lucus Lee, Gary Lee, Jialing (Where is my hug! ♥), Zhi Xiang, Guan Chin, Youfeng, Brandon (Dragonball FTW!), Junsi, Ash, Mabel, Leongbing (Thanks for drawing something for me even though you failed your art :P ♥), Adeline, Lionel, Zhongting (♥♥), Raymond, Elvis, Eugene Teh, Kenny Wu, Kira, Rafael, Yankai, Preston, Wendy, Gareth, Victoria, Shengwei, Kairui (♥♥), Ken Khoo, Jolyn Valerie (New friend, I think I got your name wrong, but thanks anyway! ♥), Benjamin Lim, Fung, Hongrui, Wilson, Yongding, Lucas Tan, Zhenci, Jocelyn Ng, Justin C, Darrell, Melvin, Qing Guo, Wei Song, Wan Hao, Ashley (♥♥), Erica (♥♥), Jun Hui, Ethan, Kenneth Chan, Eileen Tan, Hajar, Kenrick, Clarence, Aces, Yew Hao, Dex, Doris, Celeste Koh, Chong Rong, Andrew Lim (Marketing Faci), Thomas, Madeline, Meng Yuan, Rhys, Shuyan, Jingzhe, Marcus, Kenneth Low, Wilson Low, Sheryl Ong, Song Han, Claire, Saihah, Gerv Tan, Karen, Liqin, Rina (♥♥), Cryystal (Hope you'll enjoy your birthday! Three more days! ♥♥), Irwin (♥♥), Joshua Lim (Jelly~ Thanks for the handwritten/almost-illegible card! ♥♥), Jack Koh, Benjamin Kou (The cutest birthday wish ever! Now I will remember you for life, Benj-loser! ♥♥), Darryl Tong (Officially the last person to wish me :P ♥).

Names are according to the time they wished me. :) Also, names that are underlined are people whom I don't even know and yet they still wished me. As for names that are bolded are people who made me feel slightly more special. Thank you all so much :') (PS: People who agreed to meet up with me even though you guys were supposed to be busy studying on Sunday, sorry for ditching, but I hope you know that I really appreciate it! ♥♥♥ Irwin suggested that we meet up next week, what do you say, dinner+Starbucks? :D)

These few days have been really crazy. Whichever part of my life, it is all too crazy. The bond between my female classmates and I is indescribable. My time is school pass really quickly. Nothing unpleasant except some gossip when we go home together. Never knew the girls in my class are this capable at gossiping, just that they seem really studious. Not sayin' they aren't now, now. :) Love them to bits! Awesome people whom have been really supportive. (L)!

I have an insane craving for Popeyes. When my pay comes to me, I shall shop until I drop! I already have a LONG list of what to get. Come on, come on, come on~ It's taking forever! :( I'm really broke now. Let's hope the pay will come in tomorrow or something! And Ng Jinghui is driving me crazy with all the 'screaming' on MSN at night and early morning texts! She's... Incredible. LOL, I hope she sees this :)

Okay, g'night fellazxs!
:) Hug?

xxx.

That was hell-of-a weekend! I met Jinghui, Linda, Leongbing and his dance friends. Photos, dance, laughter, and all! It was kind of crazy, so much memories came back to me. The girls, the dance, the clique.. Secondary school dayzxszxz! Aww. I miss them a lot! Talking about secondary school friends... Tomorrow I have to take bus to school with LYC! :) I'm gonna save his ass, so yeah. Hehehe. Going to school with him = sleep on bus = walk to school = rush rush rush! Hope we will not be late tomorrow~

Oh and! I HAVE THOUGHT UP A SERIOUSLY SMART PLAN TO *ahem, ahem* ;) I hope it works! Jinghui, please pray really hard that it will work okay! For our good! Although more of my good. But I'm sure you'll be happy if I am! SO THANK YOU VERY MUCH AND I LOVE YOUUUU. Hehehehe. It was carefully planned.. So it should fall into place! Okay, I should stop worrying! I sound so sneaky.. BUT I DON'T CARE! >:)

As for the current situation, I guess we'll have to wait and see.
Let things be and just.. And well, see how.

I'm feeling sick.
Boy, you're so contagious!

xxx.

I know that I'm gonna miss having somebody to talk to about everything. I know that I'm gonna miss all the companion by the same person. I'm not the people-person. I don't do well with a lot of friends. I don't have time to handle them all. All I needed was just one, good friend; close friend; girl friend. I will listen to all that you want to say, I will do all that you want to do with you, I will be there through laughter wherever we go and even tears through webcam. Sometimes, I just wish that I don't have to hear things that you've been repeating for the past fifteen minutes. I also wished that I don't have to be facing your anger because of what somebody else did. I will listen, but too much of anything is still too much.

They saw, how upset I was when I told them that I will finally eat with them after so long. They knew that from that moment on, nothing is going to be right. I don't know what's wrong with my classmates that made you react that way when I suggested that we eat with them. It just hurt me because it showed me that I can eat with your friend, but you can't accept eating with mine. Just so you know.. You were a great part of me. Somebody or something just had to rip you out of me. Everytime I think of doing something, I get reminded that nobody will be there to do it with me.

I'm not going to rant because I know that I am going back to square one. I'm back to thinking if I really need a girl as a close friend. Or am I better off being friendly to everyone but keep things close to myself. I can have my girls (Wendy, Junsi, Linda and Jinghui) etched deeply in my heart, but they can't physically be there all the time because RP is frikkin' at the other end of their worlds. I never liked school except of the people I get to interact with. Now that it is going to change.. I wonder what school will be like from now on. Of course, it is obvious that this change is inevitable. It will seem like nothing has changed on the surface of things except the fact that we probably won't acknowledge each other anymore. On the inside, if I dare say, both of us won't feel good but if we try to get back to the way we were.. That might probably ruin everything.

It's great to see that now, at least, you have somebody with you. I wonder how people will think when they don't see us around each other anymore. We seemed inseparable. Then again, looks can be deceiving. I wonder whom I'll always be seen with now. That aside, I still hope you don't take stuff that has milk in it. I won't be there to remind you that if you eat/drink it, you will suffer. I won't be able to stop you from being so stubborn, doing things that will make yourself regret. But I'm sure you'll do fine with her. I believe she will do all that I did, to be there for you, to listen to you, to go to school/home with you.

I will miss you..

xxx.

Whoa.

I had popeyes today. I went for work today. I talked to Dex today. Anyway, I miss Charis Wong Jun Yi like mad. Wonder if she'll read this. Hmmmzxsz! And I don't quite like the fact that my birthday is coming. Because my class plans on smearing cake on everyone's face. W46A better don't cake-war me because food on face = pimples. I miss my 15th birthday @ Sentosa though, loveliest memories! :) Today I also realized that I have a few friends I've known online that are really nice! Like.. Benj-loser and Dex! :) :) I've known them both for 4 years already! Hehehe.

I better sleep.

xxx.

:)

Today was FUN. As usual, because it's Mathematics, I get excited really easily. We all know, even if you don't -- pretend you do, I've been the worst Mathematics student.. Ever. So if I ever solve some simple shit on my own, I'll grin like an idiot. Hehehe. I did today, and I didn't really care how I did today as long as I had fun. Hope my grade will improve, like G103! :) :) Birthday celebration(s) for four classmates tomorrow! I wonder what're we eating tomorrow. Oh, and LOTS of photos! Happy happy! :D :D Plus tomorrow is Marketing! Excited or excited! Hehe~

I kinda like the idea of looking good on Fridays.
One. It is the end of the week(days) already!
Two. Look good, feel good!
Three. FOR FUN LAH. HAHA.

Okay, g'night all!

xxx.

I haven't been updating because... It's just school, annoying people, mixed feelings and empty souls. Of course life is not that sad. There are times where laughter couldn't stop and times where your heart skip beats for the fun of it. I don't know why am I acknowledging such feelings. Such thoughts.

Fun lesson today only because Adrian, Lian Sheng and Nick have been the best teammates! :) I really hope my pay come asap. I hate the feeling of lacking money. I prefer to have extra money, it feels safer. Don't you think so? Hahaha. I've been so bored in class, I almost dozed off. What is wrong with the lessons this semester? :/ The first semester was SO MUCH better.

Yeah. Unhappy, quite.

If you'd come into my world like he did to her's,
There'll be one less lonely girl.

So.. On the way to school I felt really, really, bad because I woke up late. When I was on the cab to school, I still felt really bad. I woke up late and had to cab to school. It's like waking up late and paying a $27 fine. Pissed off or pissed off? But the only one I can be pissed at is myself. Sounds kind of dumb but it felt as though I was experiencing an all time low. The journey to school pretty much sucked. I was feeling moody all the way until I reached my class. I was received with a big warm welcome by the class and I felt all better! :)

I still think that $27 is too much a trip to school, although I can sleep all the way, the air-conditioner will not be too cold and it won't be squeezy at all! BUT STILL, not worth it okay. I was feeling too moody to enjoy all that in the morning. And I have decided to keep at least a good few hundred solely for cabbing. No joke :/ now that it's over already, let's move on!

Today's lesson was productive. End of story. Hahaha. I went to Orchard Wisma with Jialing :) YES, to get baby to the "doctor". Useless doctor to be exact. I hope this time it still cannot be fixed, so that I can have a completely new laptop :x hehehe. Whatever man, Sony, you still suck ass. I've made four trips down already. Absolutely don't like it! Hmmm. And we ate our dinner at Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe. Hehe! Funny as hell. I miss working already! Minus the blisters! :)

Yawn. I feel so tired.
Much love y'all :) me happy wappy!

I'm freaking out.
I want a hug, a long warm hug.
Negative feelings spread like wild fire.
And I'm burning out.

OKAY! THREE THINGS TO POST FOR TODAY!
LISTEN UP, hehehehe :)

I shall start with the not-so-good part, hmmm. I've gotten back my grades for the week, more or less.. All I can say is, when you look at it, you feel sour inside. Like seriously. I was shocked at the comments my facilitators left for me. To those who gave me the big fat 'C', saying that I am very quiet in class... I will never be quiet in your class ever again! The first week is just a warm-up, and I never wanna see another 'C' from them. So from tomorrow onwards, I will be more participative. The sight of 'C' grades is kind of infuriating. :@ But I will get over it and prove them wrong. This is perhaps the best way to kick-start my heart for learning. Here we go!

"As the going gets tough, the tough gets going."
-A114 Facilitator

Thank you very much, faci :)

NEXT! Work today! Time really flies when you're busy. Just want to thank Edward (manager) for the ice-blended peanut-butter drink treat! Wheeeeee :) it's good, love it! The last thing is.. Youfeng is the second person to NOT recognise me. First was Benj-loser. Kiddin'~ loser! Love you, even if you couldn't recognise me after being friends for four years! Hahahahaha! :) I'm not that hard to recognise right! Please say yes! I think I won't be able to take it if another person can't recognise me... Or he/she says I look very different. 'Cause it's just shorter hair? Hehehe.

Wish me luck because tomorrow is Getting Niam-ed Day!
LOL. LOVE ALL. :)

Both my legs have a lot of blisters..
And my soles hurt like mad :(